Retrogradation

BLINDSIDED

I believe the phrase is blindsided
Where did it come from I don’t know
I’m not sure how it snuck up on me
I should have seen it coming long ago

In disbelief is where I’m at
I didn’t have the strength for that
In disbelief is where I’m at
What am I supposed to do with
where I’m at right now

The day has come and gone
now it's time to move along
take a deep breath and shake off the pain
I wonder if I'd change the past
or if they'd take it back
had I done something different before

My comprehension of the state of humanity is missing so many parts
All the things that I thought I understood are now stabbing me through the heart
I wish the world would stop taking advantage of purity and innocence
I’d like a break from all the insanity that is raging inside of me

In disbelief is where I’m at
I didn’t have the strength for that
In disbelief is where I’m at
What am I supposed to do with where I’m at

NO WAY TO KNOW

Staring at the world thru my open window
Nothin's going on at least as far as i can tell
It seems the doors been locked
Big brother has the key
And everything is changing

There’s no way to know
What to expect next
There’s no way to know
What is the extent of
What were going thru
There’s no way to know

What does the future hold for society as a whole
Humanity is desperate but no one really knows
None of us have control and the only thing we know is that everything is changing

Is this some sort of nightmare or a sad reality
It's like a movie that's gone wrong
And we're waiting for the hero
I wish we had the answers
So I could let my guard down
But this is proof that no one ever knows

What does the future hold for society as a whole
Humanity is desperate and everybody knows that
There’s no way to know what to expect next
There’s no way to know what is the extent of
What we’re going thru there is no way to know

TAKE ME BACK

Is it better now or maybe it’s worse
Have all the things I’ve learned
Become part of my down fall
Was it better then or experience
has it become my friend or foe

Take me back to a time when I was free
That moment in time when I felt like I was really me
Take me back to another place and time
Let me catch my breath and let me clear my mind

Lessons have been learned new habits formed
I'm not sure what I’d choose ‘cause life is strange
Let’s take a step back let’s turn it up real loud
Cause this is what I really miss

Just give me a chance to catch my breath
Just give me a chance to clear my head

I DON'T REMEMBER

The journey's long
and sometimes not too fun
I feel myself getting old
and sometimes I think I'm done
I need some motivation or
maybe a helping hand
to pick my self up off the ground and start living again

I've fallen again
And I don't wanna get back in that saddle any more
I've fallen again
these bumps and bruises just wont go away

I don't know why I'm here
maybe this is all I know
Been doing this for so long
I think it's starting to show in the
dark circles under my eyes
growing darker every day
I don't understand why all my problems
won't just go away

I've fallen again
And I don't wanna get behind that wheel any more
I've fallen again
These bumps and bruises just won't go away

now I don't remember why I'm here
and I can hardly remember where I've been
I thought some things would get easier the older that we got
But reality is setting in and I'm realizing that they're not
Now I don't remember why I'm here
and I can barley remember where I've been
I thought some things would get easier the older that we got
But reality is setting in and I'm realizing that they're not

Picking myself up is getting harder every day

And I've fallen again
And I don't wanna get back in that saddle any more
I've fallen again
these bumps and bruises just wont go away
I've fallen again x3
And I swear I'm gonna give it everything I've got at least for one more day